And WHY isn't my life a Nancy Meyers film?

Confession: Despite the fact that It's Complicated (like most Nancy Meyers films) is a totally mediocre film, I raptly watch it every time it is available--like now, for instance.  I have no real explanation for this, outside of the fact that if Nancy Meyers (or Nora Ephron) are attached to a film, it's love.  Generally.  Meyers is like the cinematic equivalent of Elizabeth Berg.  Everything is so cozy in that world.  Women in Nancy Meyers films have lush gardens, great relationships/men (at every age), fabulous clothes, amazing girlfriends, and perfect gorgeous cozy homes.  And nice kitchens.  Always.  Money is never a struggle for the Nancy Meyers women. 

This slightly silly, out of reach, lifestyle is something I think I secretly aspire to.  Is that vain and stupid stupid?

I have no interest in playing Susie Homemaker, but I love entertaining and hostessing.  At this point in my life, however, I can't even fathom what it must be like to own a house.  It sounds preposterous.  I can't even imagine having my own apartment again.  Thanks to tour I won't need one thru April and then who knows?

You know what I wonder?  I wonder what I'll do after tour is over.  Will I live in Dallas?  Will another opportunity present itself?  Will I suddenly become hyper-ballsy and try New York?

...I don't think I'm ready for that yet.  Wonder if I'll ever be.

You know what is disappointing about the way I've handled my life thus far?  I've had such crazy ambitions and dreams since I was...well, for as long as I can remember, and I feel like I'm still moving at a glacial pace.  Nothing has happened.  I mean, I'm working.  But have I been lazy?  Could I have worked harder and been some entrepreneurial billionaire right now?

I have an intense craving to write something significant.  I don't mean that I want to write anything deep or epic necessarily--but something lengthy.  A book, or a screenplay, or something... I'm about to (strangely enough) have enough time on my hands where I could absolutely pool my excess energy into a big project.  But what should it be?

I think the real issue is that as soon as life slows down for a minute, I start panicking over the way I'm managing it.  I've just finished a stretch of 40 days straight of 10+ hours of work and suddenly (though I'm still teaching this week) I have time on my hands and a little anxious about the future.

Alright, time to start pondering my big project.  Until then, we'll just take life one day at a time...

My last month and how I'm about to be old

Hi friends. I apologize for neglecting the blog. Here is a very brief update on the crazy that has occurred over the past month.

1. The Wiz opens this coming Friday. It has been a challenging but hugely informative learning experience and it has only further secure my love for doing theatre "on the other side of the table."
2. Through happenstance/magic, I booked a show that will perform in Lancaster, PA September-November, (come home for the holidays), Ft Myers, Florida January-February, and Mesa, Arizona March-April. I am excited beyond belief. It combines my two greatest passions: theater and travel!!
3. Before that show happens, I will be performing in/dance captaining Gypsy at Lyric Stage.
4. Between June 6 and this coming Friday, I will have worked 40 days straight (minus the 4th of July) with 10+ hours of work every day. In that span of time I will have also opened 3 shows. Wonderfully, I love my job(s) so I happily accept exhaustion to pursue my passions!
5. I choreographed my first full musical this last month. I choreographed Oliver for Lyric Stage Performing School Of the Arts. I adore choreographing and teaching stupid amounts, and hope to pursue both of these jobs forever.
6. In the midst of opening the Wiz, I am choreographing Guys and Dolls for Genesis Theater. It has been another wonderful choreographing/teaching experience.
7. I teach a musical theatre class over the next two weeks at the dance studio I attended/did tap company in in high school. Full circle. These things I love.

...I think that is mostly everything. Needless to say, it has been a whirlwind month but wonderful one in which I have learned copious amounts. Life is good, y'all.

PS I turn 22 on Tuesday. How did THAT happen?!!