I have always known this was going to be hardest thing I ever had to go through in my life. My absolute favorite part of this world which I love more than anything or anyone is slowly being taken away from me, and I feel like a part of my soul's life is being sucked away and part of my spirit and light is dying. If I don't seem myself over the next few months, this is why. I am a deeply private person, but know that I'm going through a hard time and I could use a couple of shoulders to lean on. Love you all.